Tuesday reflections

 

🕯️ Reflection — “Humility, Money, and the Fire of Today”

Today my yoga became more than movement.

It became a psychological and spiritual cleansing.

As I moved and breathed, thoughts began to rise on their own:

money… God energy… becoming a billionaire…

gratitude for this temporary room…

acceptance… humility…

It felt like the universe was speaking through my mind, reminding me that even without financial stability, I have learned the two greatest gifts:

humbleness and gratitude.

Later today, I received a phone call that shook me.

Not because of the person — but because of the truth the situation revealed.

I witnessed how easily money can twist people, how it can blind someone into thinking they are spiritual while hurting others.

I saw how power can disguise itself as help, and how manipulation can hide behind promises.

For a moment, I felt something inside me say:

“This is what money does when the spirit is weak.

But this is also what financial struggle has done for you — it has made you humble.”

It made me think of my own life.

My family.

My sister.

Friendships that have fallen apart because of money.

People who no longer speak to me because I don’t have the things society worships.

I thought about how, even at my lowest, I did not lose my compassion.

Even when someone else was drowning in addiction, I still saw their pain clearly and without judgment.

Even when I heard things today that shocked me, I did not respond with anger — only clarity.

I realized something powerful:

I am not being punished by the universe.

I am being trained.

Financial struggle has humbled me.

It has removed pride.

It has made me spiritual.

It has made me grateful.

It has made me quiet and alert.

It has made me conscious of every step.

I accepted today that I might have to leave this room tomorrow.

I don’t know where I will go.

But somehow…

I am calm.

I am prepared.

I trust.

I will check my bank account in the morning.

Maybe I can stay another night.

Maybe not.

Whatever happens, I am ready.

Because today taught me that the universe is shaping my character, cleansing my heart, and preparing me for a life where I can handle wealth without becoming corrupted.

And in the middle of all this uncertainty, the only prayer that rose from my heart was:

“Universe, please teach me how to make money.”

Not for ego.

Not for pride.

But so I can live, rest, practice, and continue my purpose.

I accept everything.

I blame no one.

I take responsibility for my journey.

If I leave this body tomorrow and never become financially stable,

at least I know I learned the two greatest lessons:

Humbleness and gratitude.

But I believe — deeply — that this is not the end.

This is the final test before abundance.

I am being shaped, not destroyed.

And that is enough for today.