Reflection

 Daily Reflection — “Returning to Thyself”

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This morning, I woke up around 3:30. I started my day with a hundred push-ups, but my body said no to yoga. So, instead, I sat still and meditated. In that silence, something whispered to me — sit more, breathe more, listen more.

As I began my run later, thoughts came flowing in. I started to see life differently. I thought about returning to thyself — what it truly means to love yourself.

When I separated from my son’s mother, I was angry and hurt. My emotions were everywhere. But over time, I realized our crossing wasn’t meant to destroy me — it was meant to awaken me. It was for my spiritual growth.

For so long, I looked for someone or something to fill the emptiness inside. I thought relationships would heal that pain. But no one could do that for me. Only I could. When she left because I couldn’t provide materially, it broke me — but it also humbled me. There’s something deeply spiritual about a woman leaving you because you can’t give her what the world defines as “enough.” It hurts, yes, but it also reveals who you are.

I stopped numbing my pain and started facing it. I spent my days reading, practicing yoga, meditating, and running. When I got hit by a car, when I had a stroke — I still said to myself, I will not abuse my body. I wanted my son to one day tell me, sober, how angry he is that I wasn’t there — and I would listen with a clear mind.

Through Buddhism, yoga, and meditation, I began to see that most of what happened in my life was a reflection of my own choices. I had to own that truth. Healing isn’t easy. Staying sane takes work. It takes consistency.

Instead of getting addicted to substances, I got addicted to running, reading, and meditation. And yes — it was lonely. When you lose your status, you see how many people truly love you. Many walked away. I felt unworthy. But that’s when I realized: no one can love me if I don’t love myself first.

So, I learned to fall in love with me — to forgive everyone who ever hurt me, and to forgive myself. Because without forgiveness, there is no peace.

Now, I no longer chase success. I chase truth, silence, and love. The kind that comes from within.